Life is either a daring adventure…

A Mother’s Day Well-Lived

I’d been in a funk with a capital F the past few weeks and the mundane of life was getting to me.  So when I woke up yesterday and Mr YT asked what I wanted to do that day I said, “Maybe take a road trip.  Or go for a walk.”  “You don’t want to just rest or get out alone?”  He asked a little bewildered.  “I don’t know…let me think about it.”

The sun was shining and the post-church nap by Miss C was complete so we loaded up for a drive.  There is a small Ohio town we wanted to check out (more on that, later) so we headed an hour away and promised the kids ice cream and a park if they took the drive with ease.

We found a McDonalds – not a hard feat- and gave the kids the joy of eating inside.  I laughed to Brian that our kids were more excited to eat inside at the McDonalds of small-town Ohio than they were to go to Australia (notevenkiddingonebit).  Then we found a park and the kids enjoyed all the new slides and swings and playground equipment they’d never been on before.

We left the park with smiling, wind-blown faces.

“I mother better when I’m out of the house,” I said to Brian.

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I’ve joked with friends that most days I would consider it easier to put my kids on an airplane than get them all ready and through the doors at the Y.  It’s easier for me to do something different than to do something typical.    Going places- seeing new things and new faces, is what fills my cup.

Beyond that, the kids were different, too.  They were on an adventure with mom and dad.

Somedays I’m so worried about “using my time well” that I forget that the time I have is meant for living.

My family took a Sunday drive most spring/summer Sunday afternoons.  I always thought this was an excuse for my parents to look at used cars and get ice cream (ha!) but I realize now it was more about changing life up a little, finding something new, getting out of our comfort zone, maybe having a conversation without TV and cassettes (hey, 1990) competing for our attention.  Oh, yeah, and Mom & Dad wanted ice cream.


I’m thankful for these kids, for the sleepless nights, for the early mornings, for the long days indoors and the adventures far away.  They’ve taught me so much.  They make me die a little bit to self every day.  I hope for so much for them- in the least that they continue to let me take them along on excursions- big and small.



Hooked on Books

What I’m reading in May

Hi friends!  Man, I have been a slow reader the past few months.  Although, I find when I read “heavier” books it takes me longer to process them.

Here’s what I’m reading in May with links to Amazon.

Awe by Paul David Tripp- I love what the cover of the book says, “Uncovering the lies we believe about all the earthly things that promise us peace, life, and contentment, Paul Tripp redirects our gaze to God’s awe-inducing glory– showing us how such a vision has the potential to impact our every thought, word, and deed.”

Comforts from the Cross by Elyse Fitzpatrick – I’m doing a study on this book with a few friends.  It’s a devotional format.  The price just dropped on this one and the Kindle version is only $2.99.

Stopping Stress Before It Stops You by Kevin Leman- As I mentioned in the Friday Five, I started reading this last week and I’m almost finished with it.  It’s making me realize how my parenting style may indeed be adding more stress to my life- Go figure!

The Fringe Hours by Jessica Turner- I’ve been eyeing this book for a long time, I even listened to this podcast last year when Jessica was featured.  Right now the Kindle version is only $2.99 on Amazon so I could not pass it up.may 2016 hooked books

Here are my past Hooked on Books blogs:

March 2016

October 2015

July 2015

What are you reading in May?

3 More Ways to Save Money

It’s President’s Day!  In honor of the day that celebrates Washington and Lincoln, I thought I could save you some Benjamins (who wasn’t a President, but whatev). 🙂  Here are three more things we do to save money.

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We don’t give it to the government

Seems a little ironic, right?  While I’m patriotic to the US of A, the tax code should always be used to one’s advantage!  It’s YOUR money, anyhow.  Since my husband is  self-employed, we do our best to keep track of all business write-offs, everything from meals while he is away to our cell phone bill to mileage accrued.

 It’s important to know what you’re able to write-off and keep great records.  We also get our taxes done by a CPA (Do not do H& R Block, they will rip you off).  Yes, it’s an investment up front, but they know the tax laws and they are able to package everything up for it.  Your time is valuable.  That said, if you have a small business (I see you Miss Scentsy, Noonday, Jamberry, It Works!) make sure you know if you need to be paying quarterly taxes.  A huge bill come April is one definite way to get your budget off-track.

Another way we avoid taxes is living in a city that doesn’t have high real estate taxes.  If we had the same home in a neighboring suburb, we’d pay 2-3 times a year more because of better schools, which would be appealing, but we aren’t sending our kids to public school. 😉  It’s worth it to do loads of research before you buy.  Consider the schools your children will be going to.  Look at the income tax that your city requires, plus the school district income tax.

We were unclear about homeschooling before we bought our home (and we still are some days, Ha!), but it’s good to base your decision not only on what you can afford, but the education you desire for your children.  That said, don’t overpay in the area of real estate taxes.  I cannot imagine paying $200 or $300 more per month to live in a similar home, only to complete a tax payment.  No way!

Food is important

We need food to live (thanks, Captain Obvious), but more than that, food can control our budget! For our family, groceries are our highest monthly expense after our mortgage- and I’m sure in a few years as the kids grow a bit more, it will easily PASS our mortgage!  So making good choices with our spending on food is absolutely necessary!  I’ve blogged before about shopping at Aldi and how we pay cash for groceries, but I wanted to go into a little more detail.

The easiest ways to save money on groceries are to only shop once per week (or once bi-weekly) and plan meals.  I’m not organized enough to plan breakfast, lunch, and dinner so we stick to staples for breakfast like cereal or frozen waffles (try the fit & active waffles from Aldi!).  Lunch is typically pb & j or a cold meat sandwich.  I do plan most dinners (and yes, I even plan pizza nights, as I need to know if I have money in my envelopes!).

I hate cooking, so planning meals helps not only save money, but sanity.  I buy 3/4 of my groceries at Aldi and fill in things like meat and some produce at Kroger.  Some ideas for quick and inexpensive meals- chicken & noodles, sale-priced meat with baked potato and salad, spaghetti and meatballs (I’ve heard good things about Aldi frozen meatballs).

Some of my favorite recipes:

Chicken and vegetable pot pie from Real Simple (Tip: Use split chicken breasts.  You’ll spend an extra 2 minutes pulling out the bones, but you’ll save about $1,50/lb on the chicken).

Pineapple pepper pork– Crockpot meal!

Green enchilada pork chili– It’s usually less expensive to use boneless chicken thighs.  It tastes just the same!

Buy used

What do cribs, cars, and children’s clothes all have in common?  We buy them USED.  About 6 months ago the rocker we had in the baby’s room was falling apart.  Literally.   Thanks to some rambunctious boys, the arm was falling off.  For 6 months we read books with a broken arm.  Then one day I sat it out for a garbage man.  About a month later I saw a rocker/glider on a Facebook selling wall.   FOR $20!  I nabbed it.

Just today I met a lady at Wendy’s to buy a winter coat for C for next winter.  $5.  Ok, yes, so looking for deals will take some time and a little effort.  However, instead of needing to find a coat in October when we get our first cold spell- and shelling out $25- I’ll now have one clean and ready to go- and a savings of 80%.

What have we bought used?

  • Every single car
  • Dining room buffet
  • Lamps
  • Side tables
  • 90% of our children’s clothing except for shoes and underwear
  • Specialty children’s wear- Easter outfits, Christmas dress, snow boots.  Most are worn very lightly and you’ll save 50% or more!
  • Baby supplies – carrier, exersaucer, high chair
  • Post-baby outfits.  (i.e. clothes to after childbirth before your original clothes fit again)
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Easter clothes- everything was thrift or consignment except C’s shoes and socks (they were new!) and Jackson’s pants and shoes (they were hand-me-downs from a friend, LOL). Btw, my kids love to pose. Obviously.

There are some things you have to avoid when buying used.

  1. Do not overbuy.  Just because something is a great DEAL does not mean you NEED it.  I don’t go to Goodwill/Thrift stores unless I’m specifically looking for an item, because I know I can be easily sucked in by a deal.
  2.  Join a local buying/selling wall but ALWAYS meet at a public location.  I will never pick-up or drop-off  from someone’s home.  Let a friend or spouse know what time and where you are meeting someone.
  3. Bargain.  I’ve asked people to go lower on their price at yard sales, on selling walls, and even at Goodwill!  If I see a small stain or pilling, I”ll ask for a discount.  The best way to do this is at a yard sale.  If you are buying 10 items and say they are about $1 each, say, “would you take these 10 items for $8?” As Mom always said, “The worst they can say is NO.”

I don’t think you can save yourself to wealth, you must work on your income as well.  However, sometimes we need to start doing things the old-fashioned way, handling money like our grandmothers did.

What’s one way you save money? Have you thought about your tax rates before?  Are you a thrift shopper like me? I’d love to hear!

Fighting entitlement in children (and all of us)

A book review

I’ve been following Kristen Welch for a long time.  Her oftentimes raw prose about parenting, marriage and raising kids is always something I’m eager to read.  So when I was accepted to be on her Launch Team for Raising Grateful Kids in an Entitled World, I did a little happy dance for the opportunity to read the book (for free) before every once.  Of course these opinions are my own.

I will admit it’s empowering for me to hear a mom that is 10 years ahead of me (in parenting years- her oldest is 16) say, “It’s okay for our kids not to be rewarded all the time.”  In a world where kids get a goody bag at the party or a trophy at the game JUST FOR SHOWING UP, we’re swimming upstream when we show our kids a life that looks any differently.  I’ve been pressured into feeling like my kids are due something, when they really aren’t.

Kristen also thoughtfully reminds parents that kids will cling more to what they catch than what we teach them.  Our parenting will look different when we choose to raise un-entitled children.  Kristen points out, “This involves not just fitting Jesus into our lives, but fitting our lives into Jesus.”  I had to say that phrase a few times over and ask myself whether I’m all in for Jesus or I’m just expecting him to be all in to my plans.  I can’t preach “take up your cross” if I’m expecting my kids to learn from my sometimes whiny demands for take-out or new clothes.

Kristen shares many stories from her own family’s quest to live differently.  She gives real-life examples of how to help kids gain perspective on our wealth and abundance in the First World.  In the chapter named Gratitude, Kristen shares how each family member put a rubberband on their wrist and snapped it when they made a complaining comment.  (Yikes!  I think my wrist would be raw.)  She shares how it was a wake-up not only to her children, but herself as well.

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Raising Grateful Kids in an Entitled World would be a great book to read for the new year.  I’ve definitely implemented some of Kristen’s parenting strategies and taken note of my own behaviors that scream “entitled.”  If you have older children,  you’ll  appreciate the time spent discussing social media and the Welch family’s social media contract!  I better tuck that away for the near future. 🙂


How do you fight entitlement in your family?


Order the book via Amazon

Kristen’s blog : We are THAT family

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A Plan for the New Year

2016 goals and aspirations

Happy 2016!  Below are some of my goals for the New Year.  I think it’s important to declare these things publicly because it makes me accountable.  If I tell everyone I know via the world wide web, I better stick to my word, right?!


Run the Blackhand Gorge 10k trail run in August (I ran the 5k in 2015)

Eat one fruit and one vegetable everyday (It’s that bad.  Why aren’t M & Ms a fruit?!?)

Rest.  Like really rest.  Nap without guilt.  Take a day off  from cleaning.  Repeat.  Read a book and lay down.


Implement things I am learning in Boundaries with Kids

Read to the kids during daylight hours (we read a lot before bed, but incorporate this more into the daytime)


One date night/month

Make Brian’s lunch once per week (ok, I know that sounds simple, but I know it’s a way I can serve him and make his mornings easier)

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This could be listed under all categories, but for the past six months Proverbs 18:13 has hung on my fridge, “He who answers before listening- that is his folly and his shame.”  Just a few verses down the page, you’ll find Proverbs 18:21 and it states, “The tongue has the power of life and death, and those who love it will eat its fruit.”  It’s probably been since, you know, I was just old enough to talk, that my mouth has gotten me into trouble.  Yes, I’ve even had Dial soap squirted into my mouth (Thanks Dad!).  I’m realizing more and more (now with kids in the house and a marriage that is witnessed daily by 3 little humans) that I can either use my words to build up or tear down.  My go-to is negativity.  So my goal this year is just to try to put an end to negative speak, whether it be “you kids are driving me nuts” or “how come you NEVER do x, y, or z?”  There’s always a different way to phrase things.

Romans 12:12 says we (Christians) are to “Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer.”  My goal for this year is to live that out.  Exude joy.  Have more patience (yikes!).  Be faithful in prayer.  If I say I will pray for something, really PRAY for it  (you do it, too).



Continue funding Roth IRAs and 529s

Buy a flip/investment house



I’ll cover this in my next blog!


Did you make resolutions or goals for the new year?  Do you write them down and display them?


How to make a budget

(AKA: How to afford to do the things you want to do)

You can read lots and lots of financial advice.  There are books and blogs and e-courses,oh my!  However, we’ve found that truly the ONE thing you must have if you want to succeed financially is the dreaded B word- a BUDGET!

The months when we get off track with our budget are the months that we lose sight of the big picture.  Creating a budget gives you the space to save, invest, and prepare for emergencies.  Even if your income is small, giving “every dollar a name” (Dave Ramsey stuff right there) and living under your means will allow you to do this.

I’m going to walk you through how to make a budget in the same way we have been doing one for 12+ years.  All you need is a Google spreadsheet or a Excel file.

Here are the items that we budget for every single month, along with some notes:


If you don’t have a clear picture of what money is coming in each month and what your set expenses are each month, how can you prepare?   What happens when 2 of your little ones get strep and the Dr visit + the medicine is $190 (hmm, wonder who this happened to?), now your sickness becomes a financial crisis.

Once you budget consistently for 3-6 months, you’ll notice something.  You will hardly check your bank account!  There’s no need to check it- you’ll know that you have the money because you told that money where to go!

We’ve been making budget each month since 2006.  It’s never one-size-fits-all.  You must meet each month and discuss the changes for that time.  Utility charges vary by season, kids need clothes and shoes at different times of the year- you must anticipate these things.



Budgeting Tips:

  1. Some items are not listed (like car insurance) because we’re able to swing them through my husband’s commission.  In your own budget, I would recommend breaking down your larger expenses into monthly expenses (you’ll notice I do this for our term life insurance policies).   For instance, maybe you pay your car insurance twice per year and the cost is $600.  Instead of trying to come up with $600 in June and December, allot $100/month in your budget and then DON’T TOUCH THAT MONEY.  When the bill comes, the money will already be in your checking account.  You can also do this in saving for Christmas or other big purchases.
  2.  You must use (some) cash.  It’s very hard to adhere to a budgeted number if you only use debit or credit.  We take out cash on the 1st and 15th each month to pay for groceries, eating out, blow money (usually ends up being eating out) and babysitting.  Having money that can be physically touched causes a different emotion than swiping a card.  I’ve tried using debit/credit for groceries and I always underestimate how much I’ve spent.  Seeing that there’s only $30 in my grocery envelope shows me that it’s time to buckle down and eat from the pantry or freezer, instead of making another trip to Kroger.
  3.  A budget works better when you stay out of debt.  Don’t look at your monthly budget like, “Oh, we have an extra $165 dollars every month, we could afford an upgrade on xyz.”  Negative, ghostwriter.  You’re looking for money to save, invest, and give.  Stop asking if you can afford the payment and start asking if you can afford IT.  (Notice there are no lines for a car payment?)  You can’t get out of debt if you keep taking on more!  Whatever you need to do to push yourself- do it!
  4. If there is money leftover, start saving for an Emergency fund (if you don’t already have one).  A $1,000 should be enough in the short run to cushion you against car repairs, a leaky roof…or strep throat. 😉
  5.  Notice these are just expenses.  I didn’t add lines for saving, investing, or even vacations.  Add whatever you need to add as long as you aren’t spending more than you make!


Do you do a budget? What does your budget look like? 

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Seasons (of motherhood) are circular

When Motherhood Takes All

Oh friends, I have two half-written posts, scrap paper with blog ideas overflowing, and social media shares still residing safely in my bookmarks.  Everything is just there.  Waiting for me.

It’s funny how every week I set out to do things and every week I’m buried somehow between loads of laundry, a crockpot soaking in the sink, and homeschool and shopping and well, LIFE.  Short of having a Jessie Spano meltdown (THERE’S NO TIME, THERE’S NEVER ANY TIME), I muster through until back-up arrives (i.e. Daddy) and then get 30 minutes to myself before bedtime rituals and I’m sunk.

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I’m not saying this to complain.  Oh, no.  I know that many people dream of having little babies under foot!  I’m a blessed lady.

However, when having little ones you’ll often hear the adage, “This is a season…”  You know what, it is.  It is definitely a season.  Then there are 3 weeks maybe where life seems easy and everyone is fit-free and happy and then we’ll hit a plague of the stomach flu.  Cue a week of chaos.

But while we think of the seasons of babies and diapers and exhaustion, there is probably a new season on the horizon and it may involve bullies or girlfriends or (gulp) the driver’s license.  I was texting with one of my dearest about her teenagers and the new season she has entered that doesn’t seem easier (she’s a baby whisperer, though, which I am not.  Arguing, now THAT I can handle).  I digress.  I think at that point when we’re past 8 pm bedtimes and wiping their own butt, there will be new challenges that will pull me from the all the things I hope and aspire to do.  This conversation also kept me up at night- realizing I’d have an 18,16, and 15 year old some day- FOR THE LOVE.

Here are my options:

  1. Hire a babysitter to help more. At $10-$12 dollars an hour, this is an investment I have to consider.
  2. Bemoan my life and cry myself to sleep
  3. Roll with the Seasons, knowing that I’m confident in what my life looks like as long as my value system is in place (God, family, schooling my kids, 284750 other things).

You know when I get most off track?  When I take off my blinders and look what everyone else is doing.  I discuss that here.

So all this mumbling– since I’ve hit the aforementioned sunk-– is to say this.  THIS IS A SEASON.  And before long, there will be another season of motherhood.  And then another.  And by God’s grace I’m going to give myself some grace.  

My self-examination this week has led to the following thoughts:

  1.  I’m not sure I will ever enjoy cooking mostly because cooking makes a giant mess.  If my family eats 1 pizza a week, NO ONE IS GOING TO DIE.
  2. Sleep is important.  When I do not sleep enough I am crabby.  I would rather be crappy at life (you know, as in failing at some things) than crabby in life!  My kids (and husband) remember crabbiness.  The most toxic people I’ve been around just weren’t joyful.  Now we don’t have to run around like Buddy the Elf all of the time, but I choose joy (and this is why again, that newborn stage is sooo hard).

I’m happy to end the mom guilt.  This season will turn into the next one and there is no way I’ll ever feel like I’m doing enough.  Moms, let’s all show each other the grace that we want.  Let’s bask in it.  And let’s be less crabby and more crappy! Ha!! (<- And 5 people just stopped reading my blog forever).


I want to be fully present in my one life

How a Garth Brooks concert reminded me of my daily battle with my smartphone

One of my favorite quotes is “Wherever you are, be all there.”  Jim Elliot was wise beyond his years  when he died at the hands of Ecuadoran natives in 1956, he could not have foreseen the technological advances the world would acquire in the next 70 years.  It’s hard to “be all there” when a 4″ long device that sits in the palm of your hand can take you on an exploration of someone else’s through YouTube, Instagram, or Snapchat.  Why be all there with your own family when you can stream a valuable podcast or music video?

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This hit me even more this past Friday night when we saw Garth Brooks in concert.  The first time he had been to Ohio since 1996 (I was 13? What?), we had friends that had tickets come available at the last minute.  To say that I was excited was an understatement, but as Brian and I stood up and sang every song like it may be the last time we’d ever sing it, I noticed something-  Row after row of people in front of us were not standing.  Not singing.  They were holding their phones and recording every minute.

Ok, maybe they can post these videos to YouTube and make an extra buck or maybe they wanted to show their kids the fun night out.  My question is this:  How are you fully present in life if you’re viewing everything through a 4″ screen?  Why pay $75 for a seat at a concert if you’re not really going for the concert?  How do we show value to the people we’re with if we’re not engaged with them but engaged with a device?

I struggle with my cell phone as much as anyone else.  It can be addicting to check-in on Facebook, post a photo to Instagram, or record a snap of my kids!  As I’ve thought more and more the past few months about how I can be fully present with my family I’m convicted (and convinced) that many times I’m with my family in my body but not in my mind.  This has been difficult as a new blogger, too.   Jackson thinks that we go on walks for  “” (he’s a funny kid!) and I worry that maybe he’ll see everything as a social media post instead of fun, family times.  I’m often behind the camera and admiring the view only through the eyes of a pending photograph.

Friday night reminded me that nothing beats being fully present with my husband, belting out each tune.  I’d rather enjoy my children’s funny sayings firsthand, not while I point a tiny camera at them.  My phone is a lifeline but it’s also a shackle.

A.W. Tozer said, “Among the enemies to devotion none is so harmful as distractions.”  While Tozer was speaking of our relationship to God, his words could be used for any relationship- distraction IS an enemy.   I want to keep my eyes on the prize (God, my husband, my family) and not on the little device that begs me to draw away.


Do you struggle with spending too much time on your mobile device?  Have you been to a concert and noticed no one is actually watching the concert anymore?  How do you deal with this?

Hooked on Books- October edition

Hi!  I’m here for another monthly addition of what I am reading.  Now that Fall has arrived in the Midwest, I’m looking forward to more afternoons spent inside enjoying books.

This blog, How do you stop feeling guilty about taking time to read? from Crystal at Money Saving Mom was super helpful.  Ladies, we shouldn’t feel guilty about reading!  There are numerous statistics to support why it’s important for adults to read, but I also believe it’s important for our children to see us reading!  I want my kids to see books as leisure. I can’t think of a better habit to instill in them.

In September I finished the following books:

I’m Happy for You (Sort of…not really) by Kays Wills Wyma

15 Invaluable Laws of Growth by John C. Maxwell

For the Love by Jen Hatmaker

And I’m still reading Kangaroo Dreaming (out of print) because it is the most in-depth book about Australian travel and wildlife THAT MAY HAVE EVER BEEN WRITTEN.

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October Reading List

Longing for Paris: One woman’s search for joy, beauty, and adventure– right where she is by Sarah Mae

The Hole in our Holiness: Filling the Gap between Gospel Passion and the Pursuit of Holiness by Kevin DeYoung

Einstein Never Used Flash Cards:  How our Children Really Learn– and Why They Need to Play More and Memorize Less by Kathy Hirsh- Pasek


Have you read any of these?  Any you hope to read soon?  Ever feel guilty for reading?


More info:

September Reading List

July Reading List


Why we’re all taking life too seriously and how it pays to play hooky

A sermonette to myself

First, I’d like to thank my Dad for letting me play hooky approximately 1-2 times per school year from about 9th grade onward.  He knew my rebellion was strong when I would ask him to call me off for the day.  The year he was not in charge of me, whilst spent on exchange Down Under, I missed 23 days.  I can’t clearly remember what many of these absences were for- some were days traveling throughout the red dust, a few were spent at the mall, and a few more because one of my host mums just didn’t make it out of bed!

Still wet behind the ears, I was the only girl I knew who got married IN college.  Much to the dismay of many around me who swore I’d end up pregnant and eating bon-bons in History 401, I graduated summa cum laude with a BA in History and Love and managed to only miss 1-2 classes a week due to “illness” and “life.”

This lengthy opening is all to prove the point:  Some times we skip out on things and life doesn’t end.

I missed 23 days of school and learned more about life than ever before.  I missed 2 years of “college life” and gained a faithful husband.



We live in a time where we sign our three-year-olds up for the soccer team and chart how many letters our children can identify before age 4.   Frankly, I’m trying to keep my three year old from pooping his pants, I don’t have the capacity to worry if he can score against Declan and Logan.  This week I explained to another mom that we only have the boys in swimming because because I don’t want to get in the water with C  (under 3s must have a parent at our Y) and I FELT GUILTY.  GUILTY BECAUSE MY CHILD WHO IS NOT 2 IS NOT YET MICHAEL PHELPS.  What kind of world is this?

We all (myself included) need the daily or weekly gut check to remind ourselves that we are all taking this little life too seriously.

Not as in, we aren’t compassionate about orphans and widows and refugees and sick mothers and broken neighbors…

but the American life that we lead, the first world, wealthy, MY 21-MONTH OLD NEEDS SWIMMING LESSONS- world.  That is the one we need to step back from and consider the hours, consider the commitments, consider the cost of not loving and living well.

Playing hooky from the extras hurts no one.

Your 3-year-old does not need teamwork.  He needs parents who love him and tuck him in at night and discipline his wrongs and teach him to peddle his bike.

I’m so torn about hurting others feelings or expectations for what my life should look like that I don’t step back and look at my own life and make those decisions for our family that WORK FOR US.

My husband and I started dating the weekend I turned 16 and so a few nights ago I was emotional (and tired) and felt the candle was burnt at both ends and I had the little meltdown….the exact one I remember having on his shoulder the week before the high school musical Guys and Dolls was about to start and Miss Adelaide not only had to sing about having a cold but I had come DOWN with a cold.  Its weird to have a deja vu moment like that, but it came and it revealed something that I understand but much of the outside world may not-   I despise being busy and burn out easily.  I’m an HSP with an emphasis on the HS.  (<- btw when I found this stuff it was like my ENTIRE LIFE WAS EXPLAINED).

But when I get around others, whether in the physical sense or the social media world, I have the expectation for MYSELF that I should be able to do the crazybusy American dream. I’m not sure what that dream entails but I doubt it includes the consistent ugly cry on my husband’s flannel.

I think it was Jen Hatmaker (theology aside) who said, “We need to quit trying to be awesome and instead be wise.”

You know what helps me to be an awesome mother and wife?  Sleep.  I may want to be the world’s best writer but if I write instead of taking that 20-minute rest while C sleeps, you can count me in as the “I’m making dinner and threatening the livelihood of my children” category.  I can have evenings busy with dinner dates and sporting events, but I’ll snap at my husband more and want to collapse into a dark room by 6pm Thursday.

Wisdom, to me, is going through life slowly.  Adding small things on my plate that I enjoy, like travel and girls’ nights, and ignoring most other things except the non-negotiables:  loving my husband, raising my kids, and homeschooling.  Outside of that circle, I can play hooky.  I can shrug off the seriousness.  Jen goes on, “The choices you make today may completely change in five years or even next year.  Operate in the right now.”  I’ve spent the years since Olen came along just completely at war with that statement.  But ohmygosh.  Yes, this is a season.  And maybe when one child can wipe their own butt or tie their own shoes we’ll work on joining a sports league or buying an investment property.  For now, we’re playing hooky from those things and THAT’S OK.

I want to stop worrying about whether I’m doing it all right and just do what works now.  

My family unit is more important than my social media status.

My health is more important than my checking account.

Finding God in the quiet is more important than amoeba soccer.

But goodness, some little boy DOES need to learn to wipe his butt. 😉


What do think?   Have you had to step back from things for your own sanity?  Do you think we moms push too much for our kids to be successful when we should be pushing more for sane mothers?  I’d love to hear.